grow the fuck up

People say guys mature when they start with high school and realize they are in control of their own lives. Well, I can tell you something, mmorpg players NEVER grow up. It's just one of their features, or at least it appears to be.

Had a blast, but it was enough. Learning when the right time is to shut the fuck up; = a great skill. Not much more to say is there now?

Sold muffins today at school. Again. One of the teachers is starting to wonder which grade I'm actually in, since I can be often spotted attending a 7th grade class or raising money with the 9th graders. Who cares, I'm up for helping. It's chill anyway. Had good conversations with Somaya; nice to know there's someone who agrees with me on certain things. :)

Finished the god damn essay for Finnish. Four pages on why the compulsory military service is better than the hired army. I'm glad about how it turned out and stand behind my opinion. Compulsory military service is far smarter and better for our country. End of discussion. Still got that one essay due Friday, thank god it can be a bit shorter. Oh, and hell yea, I'm passing the geography course! Aiming to pass all courses this period. :D

Seems like my life revolves around studies. It doesn't really, it's just that exam week is coming up and the teachers made this period weird by stacking all the work to be done during the last week. I'm still hanging in there, as long as I get my projects sent in on time!

I guess it's time to go to sleep. Let's hope tomorrow is a bit better and I'm able to finish with that horridly complicated book...

too much to handle

I still feel completely overloaded with work. Tomorrow I have a some random Swedish verb quiz, a math quiz and my geography project due. I should also work on sending the email about the possibility of a cruise around and make an attempt to clean my room before hitting the streets at about 6pm.

And yes, I already failed NaNoWriMo 2010. With too much to do, and too little time, participating this year was impossible. Also I'm slightly messed up emotionally, so I need some space to think about things as well. :)

I'm also waiting for snow. In some ways I dislike winter, but I do prefer snow over rain. Riding horses in the snowy weather is fun too, and who doesn't like Christmas? Also snow means my birthday is coming up. I don't think I've ever celebrated my birthday in Finland with no snow. I hope the weather gets colder, so the snow will come faster, and perhaps I'll even learn to iPhone type with frozen fingers this year! :)

Green Day - Jesus of Suburbia

Some songs never die. <3

secrets

They are so hard to find out yet so easy to spread. Why?

halloween time

One bright morning, in the middle of the night. Two dead boys got up to fight. Back to back they faced each other. Pulled their knives and shot each other. A deaf policeman heard the noise and came and killed the two dead boys.

Saw the movies Haunting in Connecticut and Saw this weekend. Again. Haunting in Connecticut ain't scary, but I like the story line anyway. It's interesting, and the first time I saw it I have to admit I didn't expect it to end like it does. Recommend it to all. Thanks for the company, you never at making me smile. :) 

suck it up

"hi i was helping you build your house because I am bored and found this gold in your yard and sold it because you said you want it"

Alright. Stealing ain't right but shut the fuck up and suck it up, it's just a game.

messed up week...

Friends. Bleh. One moment you got them all for you and then one of them leaves, or is lost. This week one of my friends left, and I realized there's one I've lost too. Messed up week, I gotta say. Been super busy, had a retake exam and helped with the 70'th anniversary show. This week has been exhausting, emotional, and fun at the same time. I really don't know what to expect next, which things are going to change during the following weeks, and how they are going to change me. 

In some ways I'm sick of acting like you're dead or have been sent to Mars with a one-way ticket, but Joachim showing us that map and the distance, 10,000 km, just didn't make me feel any better. I can't get the image out of my head. Next week might be a bit of a mess, having to attend classes and all without you. I believe with the help of all the other awesome people in school I'll be alright, just not yet. I need some space. I know you'll be back and all, but really, it's just not the same.

I wish I could go back to last summer, when that picture was taken. We were just about to finish grade 9 and had no idea which school we were going to be accepted to. It was a bit exciting, but the main thing on our mind was finishing lower secondary and celebrating summer with friends. Everything was so relaxed, and October was far away. I would die for that feeling and moment. 

Chilling alone in an apartment in Eira leaves me with plenty of time to think. Saw an important person today too, which was great, but now I'm alone again for a change. Well, not exactly alone, there's this bulldog here. She's insanely cute, even though her snoring keeps me awake. Additionally, some Halloween theme movie is shown on TV right now, and this dog, well, she freaks out every time someone screams in the movie. :(

Anyway. Spending the night alone, in peace, with good music and WoW, I might just be able to relax a little bit. This week has been a mess, and I really need some time to think. 

Peace.